I was born and raised in Hamilton, Ontario. I am presently retired and re-discovering the me that was before school, work, marriage, and children. Life’s journey is guiding me back to my 4-year-old self where I am re-learning what I need to survive in this world.
I hope you enjoy my music, photography and hopefully some future drawings that I loved to do while growing up and somehow lost in life’s busyness.
“If the world were merely seductive, that would be easy. If it were merely challenging, that would be no problem. But I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.”
― E.B. White
In 2021, as I was writing 'Face in the Mirror' (video below) the world was gradually emerging from the confines of Covid restrictions. It marked the dawn of our new normal, a period of transition. However, with each passing day, the reflection that greeted me in the mirror seemed to lose touch with the person I felt I truly was on the inside. The image staring back at me became increasingly distant, failing to capture the depth of my inner self. It was a disconcerting reminder of the disconnection between my external appearance and my internal essence. I like my face but it’s not really me.
The song ‘A Mother’s Heart’ (video below) holds a special place in my heart because it’s my first composition. I wrote it with the intention of expressing my unconditional and unwavering love for my children. As my children grew, I came to the realization that their unique strengths and qualities were inherited from my grandparents, parents and siblings. Their influence played a significant role in shaping who they are. As their mother all that was left for me then, now and forever is to provide them with support, undying love and affection. In essence, I am a mother’s heart.
“I am a mother’s heart, I’m strong and I’m unchanging. I’m unconditionally loving, as I watch with adoring eyes”.
This is the first verse of my song which describes my gut feelings that I have for my kids. For many years and perhaps even at present I still live and breathe for them. That’s not to say that I don’t have a life outside of them, it just means that I will always be there for them when they want or need me.
I wrote the song 'Just for Today' to keep me in the now. To discourage the negative voices that live within. The voices that call me stupid or fat or undisciplined. The voices that propagate self-loathing. Life is too short to dwell on shame of the past and worry of the future. If you’ve ever experienced the dark abyss, than you know the importance of gratitude lists and positive thinking.
That being said …
Just for today I will love all that I am and all that I do. Just for today I will try to hold on to the bright side with all of my might.
I say to myself, if this is the last day that I spend with you let it be joyful, authentic and true.
